Inspiration for this blog

Hi, my name is Melissa. I’ve wanted to start a blog for a very long time. But I never took the plunge because I convinced myself that I didn’t have anything of value to say. I silenced myself before I even started. Fast forward 10 years, I continue to hold onto the belief that I don’t have anything valuable to contribute.

This self-doubt bled over into other things I’ve wanted to pursue. It’s gotten to the point where I feel like I’m stuck and that feeling is now seemingly permanent. 

Can I tell you a (not-so-well-kept) secret? I’m so tired of feeling stuck.

So I’m jumping in feet first. I’m committing myself to be bolder in my actions toward life. I’m doing this for me and for my mental health. Hell, even for my physical health. I’m documenting my journey even though I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m also doing this because I hope this can help others who are experiencing this same feeling. Even if this helps only one person, I would be so happy. And if that one person is me, that’s ok too.

Why the bold dev?

I did stress a lot over the name of the blog. Some bloggers say that the name isn’t as important, but I’m definitely the type to (over!) think about something until I deem it perfect.

In an effort to change that pattern, I tried to adopt a ‘fuck it’ mentality. I was going to go with the name action & motivation because I thought those two words perfectly summarise the journey I’m trying to take. Some of my other ideas were Jumping Feet First, Think Outside Your Comfort Zone, and Leaving the Sidelines. But I gave myself 24 hours to really let it marinate before I bought the domain.

In those 24 hours, I came up with the bold dev. That name excited me the most because, at the end of the day, it’s who I want to be. I want to be bolder, I want to have the courage to pursue anything I put my mind to. I’m seeking personal growth and development so that I don’t feel like I’m stuck anymore. I’m also currently working toward my degree in computer science, so being a developer is a long-term goal of mine. 

Here is a general idea of topics that you will see here and projects that I want to pursue:

• Mental health
• Establishing a morning routine
• Starting a blog
• Becoming more active
• Making digital art and art in general
• Earning my degree in computer science
• Cryptocurrency and NFTs
• Animal Crossing and Pokemon
• My two dogs, Balto and Buster

Before I overwhelm myself with all these ideas running through my head, I am committing to this blog and taking it one step at a time. I’ve accepted that it will probably read more like a journal at first but I’m excited to see where it takes me and how it changes over time.

I Got This

I don’t think this is going to be easy by any means. But I’m hoping that it will be worth it. Because it’s scary putting myself out there, especially in a format that is new to me. But you know what’s even scarier?

Having another 10 years pass and still feeling like I’m stuck.